Big Boys

The boys are continuing to grow like weeds.   Everyday, I hate it more and more that Micah only gets to witness it through pics, video and the occasional chat with them on the webcam.  It really sucks that he can't see the little things they do to make my heart melt and/or make me cry.  Both of them have really grown (not just physically) during this deployment...

Evan has gotten over the tantrums for the most part and is really impressing me with the ability to talk to me about his problems.  He clearly lets me know if he's had a bad day at pre-school...and exactly what happened to make it so bad.  Of course he excitedly lets me know the great days too!  He's also getting much better at finding ways to deal with his sadness of Micah being gone.  I can't believe this little guy can sit and carry on a real conversation with me about things other than cars, trains and firetrucks!

I've also been wondering just when he would start to take on more of an more adult role in the house...and its happened.  Twice now, he's pulled a chair up to the kitchen sink and started washing dishes by hand, only to turn and tell me "I'm doing the dishes because I know sometimes your arms get tired."  Wow, I almost cried the first time he said it...what a sweet boy!  He's also looking after his little brother so much more now too.  It's so cute to watch him guide Cam through everything from putting on shoes or brushing teeth to comforting him when he gets hurt.  Yes, Evan sure is growing up.

Camden is getting too big, too fast as well!  He now thinks he's a big boy and has to try everything for himself.  He has mastered the stairs up and down...scared me to death the first time I realized I forgot to lock the kid gate and we found him upstairs playing by himself.  He's already tried out Evan's bike/helmet and if his legs were longer, I swear he'd be taking off!  The hardest part for me is letting go of the little things...

In the past week, Cam has been deciding that he no longer wants me to rock him before he gets in his bed.  That was my favorite time to snuggle with him, but now he just points and says "bed".  That is a hard one!  He's also decided that he can walk into daycare and I can't carry him in anymore.  Instead of pulling him off my arms while he's crying for me to stay, he now walks up the the little table, pulls out a chair and waits for his breakfast while I try to get him to say goodbye.  My baby isn't so much of a baby anymore.

I know I can't keep my boys from growing up, although Evan said he was going to remain little for me...ah, if he had the power to do that.  I just wish they would slow down a little.  Not just for my sake, but for Micah's as well.  I know it kills him to not be with them...and it kills me to not have him with us to experience it all.  So many times, I catch myself feeling bad that we're having fun doing something because my husband can't be there to witness it.  I learned from the last deployment that you can't just sit around and wait for him to return.  That doesn't do anyone any good...so the boys and I will continue to enjoy our time together.  But rest assured, we think of Micah with everything we do, and can't wait until he's back here enjoying it all with us again. 

Comments

[Tami W]

They grow up so fast. How sweet that Evan is taking such a big boy position and is trying his little heart out to help mommy and be the big brother for Cam.
I remember the first time Christopher told me going into kindergarten: Mom, don't hold my hand I am a big boy now. Almost broke my heart and now he is at BCT and all I want to do is fly to Ft. Knox and hold his hand. LOL
Keep your chin up you are doing a remarkable job.

Hugz,
Tami

[David M]

The Thunder Run has linked to this post in the blog post - From the Front: 08/31/2008 - News and Personal dispatches from the front and the home front.

http://thunderrun.blogspot.com/2008/08/from-front-08312008.html